nowadays I realized that I want to be a perfect guy.

So I felt very stressful when I didn’t move my plan.

the bad thing, I blamed around people about all of my ruined plan.

it make me feel more stress. I know that I am not a perfect guy and I can’t.

do I avarice ? But I think it is normal. because our life is only one thing ,not two.

thus don’t you want to live lifetime you wanted.

So Do I.

I want to live what I want. even if the capricious goal of my life are coming.

to do so, I should be diligent. But I shouldn’t. I can’t wake up early. I can’t concentrate on a one for long time.

therefore it became stress. and I blamed around. and I felt more stress. again and again.

we know that answer is the time when we have a problem. so I will find the answer. just I wish that process finding the answer don’t make me feel hard.

well, aren't you?